as i approach my thirtieth birthday this month, i find myself reflecting on things i’ve learned about myself.
some of the negative things i hope i’m able to reign in (with the Lord’s help) and many of them, i’m still asking for daily reminders of how to improve (can you say “children?”).
some of the positive things about my personality, i think i’ve just recently become more aware of and am embracing them and seeking how God can use that for His purposes.
here’s what i know about myself So Far……..
1. I’m fiercely competitive: there have been many a sisterly- fight about how a game is played or whether or not someone played unfairly. i also hate to not keep score. there, i said it.
which leads me to my next point…..
2. I really LOVE justice: i like things (in games apparently, but also in life) to be FAIR. now, before you get all “life’s not fair” on me, i know that intellectually and have experienced it many times throughout my life, it doesn’t change the fact that i’m always seeking fairness. this shows its ugly side in my marriage when i find myself keeping a mental tally on who took the trash out last or how i never get a “day off.” i said it was ugly, but unfortunately true (and always selfish).
3. i like to teach and LOVE to learn: i always got so excited about a fresh notebook where i could keep meticulous notes, play study games (and win
), and listen to an interesting lecture in college. i also like to be right–maybe this is why i like to learn stuff, but has been a place of contention for most of my life. again, “reigning that one in” with the Lord’s help. i continue to love learning new things as is evident by my 101 hobbies. i think wood working is going to be my next one!
4. i have great friends and NEED them: in real life and through blogging. for them, i’m forever thankful. i don’t take them for granted and am encouraged and blessed by their friendships. i’ve learned that i need them and that doing life together is much better than trying to do it all on my own or in my own way.
being self-aware is a hard thing and also well-worth the effort. while i have a long way to go in many areas, acknowledging is always the first step.
what is one thing that you have become SELF-AWARE about recently? i’d love to work on our “stuff” together!
Great blog Andi –
I just had a discussion with Hannah last night about self awareness and being able to recognize where you struggle and rising above it. I like your “reigning in” term and the mental picture that gives me of God holding my hands and helping me pull those reigns back on many areas of my life. You’ve encouraged me to put myself under the microscope and take a better look at myself. I think I will learn a lot!! Thanks for the inspiration!
I’m afraid I love justice too. Maybe too much. Fortunately my husband is great at compassion. Thank God for him balancing me out!
Very nice pictures, missing the beach already !
Olithée from Paris France