She crawled in my lap,
tears in her eyes.
sobbing because she only had a large hunk of Hershey’s chocolate bar and not an extra large hunk.
“i want more, momma.” (tears, tears and more tears)
“You already have a lot and haven’t even started eating it.”
“then, i don’t want annnnyyy!” (continue to sob)
really? i think as i look down at her little hands clutching 3 huge marshmallows and 1/4 of a large chocolate bar. really? you don’t think this rare and excessive treat in normal mom-standards is enough? you’d rather cry and throw a fit than just enjoy your favorite thing in the whole world? i wouldn’t have had to give you any sweets, you ungrateful little girl.
and that’s when i heard it. soft and gentle. but, so Clear.
is not your heart also like this so often, child?
oh yeah, this isn’t really about my daughter and her expected, normal, developmental urges for everything she doesn’t have. this is about me and my sinful desires for MORE in a world where God has already given me so much.
the bible says it best,
“Better one handful with tranquility
than two handfuls with toil
and chasing after the wind.” (Ecclesiastes 4:6)
boom. lesson remembered. message received.
may we remember to be content in our now, in our means, and in our purpose and stop chasing after that impossible wind.
also, note to self: stopping to taste the chocolate might be a better choice than crying about not having the whole bar.